Changing the Past: Personal Healing Through Time and the Invisible Worlds

We are moving through an era in which Gaia’s dimensional transformations are rapidly progressing. The dramatic Earth changes are altering our experience of time and space. One day not so long ago, I realised that my past was being rewritten.

This is a story of healing, though not in the usual way. The counsellors who supported me through the process were not human beings, but fairy ones. The midwife of the transformations I underwent was Gaia herself.

The story moves through two layers. The first is the layer of human experience and memory. The second is the layer of invisible worlds and inner landscapes- the realms that lie alongside and thread through the first layer.

Layer One: I had a rather sad childhood in New York. As an adult, when I looked back, painful memories would surface: frequently crying myself to sleep as a child after being shouted at, long hours spent staring out of the window adrift in boredom and the unspoken weight of living as poor immigrants in a cramped apartment.

Layer Two: Decades later, after I had already done ample personal work to make peace with the difficulties of my childhood, my consciousness was drawn back to the places I had known as a child. I was not taken to the physical places where humans inhabited, but to the deep inner worlds of the Sidhe- the fairy beings who are the cousins of humanity. I came to experience Manhattan, the place where I had lived as a child, as a landscape of the Sidhe and of the native people who had lived beside them in deep friendship and harmony.

As I connected with the Sidhe dimension of the lands tied to my childhood, I was shown a wider lens of my soul’s journey. The trials and tribulations of the human sphere were only one aspect of what my soul had lived through. As I had been passing through the events of my childhood, I had also been touching the parallel fairy worlds. Although my human self was unaware of it at the time, this immersion had been quietly shaping my soul development and personal elemental being.

Mannahatta

Manhattan was called Mannahatta by the Lenape people, meaning ‘island of many hills’. The island was their gathering place for fishing and planting activities. The famous ‘sale’ of Manhattan is now widely understood as a story of colonial exploitation and dispossession, as the indigenous people had no concept of land ownership. Image: Photographic recreation of the wild island by Markley Boyer in collaboration with the Wildlife Conservation Society

Then something remarkable happened: the painful memories of my childhood stopped being painful. Layer Two- the fairy anchor- had superseded Layer One, the human anchor. Something shifted at a fundamental level in the way my inner self held memories and past experience. I could no longer identify with my past as I once had. In its place I discovered a new past, one that had been hidden in the layers of my soul matrix.

Any sufferer of trauma can tell you that the past can live in the present moment, reverberating like a live experience. Einstein’s theory of relativity demonstrated that time is not absolute but elastic, capable of speeding up or slowing down depending on where you stand in the universe. Quantum physics shows that particles can exist in multiple states simultaneously. For indigenous peoples, time has always been cyclical rather than sequential.

Although the prevailing modern worldview tends to place time within linear frameworks, as we open our consciousness to the different dimensions of our reality, we find ourselves encountering time as pliable and multi-layered.

Can you change your past? In the face of illusory linear time, every shift we make in the present moment can alter the past and the future. My experiences of revisiting inner landscapes in meditation led to an unexpected deep healing, in which certain aspects of my past became nearly unrecognisable from what I had known them to be for most of my life.

Consider that we are each souls standing at a single point- the eternal now- from which branches an infinite number of possible experiences. The trajectory that our awareness chooses to follow is a fluid navigation. Space and time are a relational phenomenon, where the self and the cosmos are in constant dialogue.

Our stories melt into the Earth’s stories and vice versa, until one day the self we thought we were simply ceases to exist- and something radically new takes shape. In situations of conflict or disaster, where humans and other legged ones flee, I find myself wondering about those who remain: the trees, the mountains, the rivers and seas, the enduring landscapes that offer their unwavering presence, holding the spheres of peace.

For the Australian Aboriginal people, Dreamtime is a spiritual dimension intertwined with the everyday, observable time. Artwork: Malaka (Honey Ant Dreaming) by Aboriginal artist Clifford Possum Tjapaltjarri. Public domain image from WikiArt.

I have one memory from my childhood which remains to this day a complete mystery. I was perhaps 10 years old, on a school trip to Central Park. At a certain moment, our group entered an area filled with flowers and a tall waterfall- a small, enchanted corner of the park that seemed to exist outside of ordinary time. We sat and had a picnic there. When it was time to leave, I felt reluctant to go and told myself I would return one day.

In my adult life, I tried to find it again. I asked friends who knew the park well. I searched for any description that might match what I remembered. Nothing corresponded, and the question kept arising: had we truly been there or had I dreamed it?

I have come to understand that the hidden place held a key. It was where Layer One and Layer Two had intersected. In the midst of an ordinary excursion with school teachers and classmates, my awareness had slipped into the fairy dimension of Central Park. My consciousness had touched Gaia’s inner realms of beauty and abundance, tended by the Sidhe and the beings of the ethereal world.

Over the course of a childhood filled with emotional pain, one afternoon a distinct landscape emerged- one that had been holding me all along, in a different layer of space and time.

After decades of personal healing, I have found that the Earth- and her extraordinary ability to weave us into the web of life- is the greatest healer of all. As we listen to the places we know and cherish and deepen into their embrace, we may discover secret gardens and unseen dimensions.

Some say angels shoot arrows of love. I would say they also shoot new arrows of time.

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